I remember all too well the first time I experienced my spiritual intuition—that deeper knowing that serves as the foundation of a happy sensitive life. I was twenty-something and head-over-heels in love with a guy I’ll call Dan. We lived 600 miles apart, so I wrote him lots of letters. And, because this was back when dinosaurs roamed the earth and email didn’t exist yet, we talked on the phone.
But lately I had been hanging up from these calls feeling sick to my stomach. So I screwed up my courage and asked Dan point-blank, “Is everything OK? Are we OK?” He replied, “Oh, yes, everything’s fine.” But my stomach told a different story. Sitting with that queasy feeling, I wrote in my journal, “Dan says we’re fine. But this feels so awful, I’d almost rather end the relationship than keep feeling this way.” A week later, a bombshell arrived in the mail. “I’m seeing someone else,” Dan wrote. “But I want us to be best friends.”
I was devastated. Why hadn’t he told me the truth when I asked? And who was he kidding, suggesting I could switch to being friends? I was more likely to spot an ivory-billed woodpecker. Like many HSPs, I had always taken breakups hard, and this was no exception. I was consumed by shame, telling myself the breakup must have been caused by some terrible flaw in me. [Read more…]